Introducing Miss Ally

Between my last post and now, we've welcomed a new addition into the family with the arrival of Miss Ally. It took a day or two for the maternal instincts to kick in ( and for the drugs to wear off!) but I can now proudly say that motherhood is wonderful.
I use to watch shows whereby mothers proclaim " I never knew I could love someone so much" and think to myself " oh cut that crap!" but you know what, its true. A child really changes your life in so many ways and brings with it a whole host of different emotions.
It took me a while to embrace those changes and to stop wishing for my old life back. Once that was done, I actually learn to enjoy being with her and watching her change day by day.

The fact that Ally was born with a cleft palate makes me all the more protective of her. I want to protect her from other people's ignorance of her condition, I don't want anyone saying that I did something wrong to cause her condition or that her condition is a sign of bad luck. All that is just plain ignorance and I want to protect her as much as I can from all that bullshit.
Of course I went through a period of blaming myself, I thought back on what I could have done wrong, how I may have caused her to end up with a cleft. At the end of the day, I decided it was no use looking back to the " what ifs" what's more important is dealing with her condition now and looking after her to the best of my ability.

She is 9 days old today and I'm still learning her little likes and dislikes. Ally is no doubt the apple of her daddy's eye and grandma's little angel.